Strength to carry on, Courage to fight on and Faith to share Christ

This week marks a new beginning. We shifted back some stuff to prepare our permanent stay in my own home. And starting tonight, we will make our way back home every night.

Actually this move is quite daunting. Every morning, we have to all wake up very early to send Zest to the nanny's place and Bliss to school. That will be 6 am. I worry about whether my girls can adjust and if we can all make it to work on time. In the evening, we will have to make it back from my inlaws place to home. Then in May, there will be another change of routine as I will put both of them into another brand new school (supposedly nearer to my home now). That means that the kids get to see less of their grandparents and we must get home in time to fetch them every evening. Dinner will be packed from any coffeeshop along the way. Expenses will increase and budget will get tighter. Etc.. I think I can continue typing a very long list.

All these are adding to my anxiety everyday when I think about them. However, today my Lord told me that my bondage will be broken. I will no longer be enslave to all the lies that the evil one has injected in me. My spirit was aroused, and I am awaken. I walked out my tomb and remove the strips of linen that was wrapped around me. The Lord said that I am never never to put it back again.

So the Lord said to give me:

Strength to carry on,

Courage to fight on, and

Faith to share Christ.

Psalms 9: 9-10

The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed,

a stronghold in times of trouble.
Those who know your name will trust in you,

for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.

I lost my running mate today!

Today I ran another addition 2Km because I lost my running mate.

This running mate of mine usually finishes his run at about 10 mins before me. So he either waits for me at the end point (hardly unless there is more than 2 of us running) or starts to cool down back at his desk (reading emails or attending to some questions from other colleagues). However, today I fail to find him in either locations.

That makes my whole office panicked! We start calling his handphone, but it is on his desk. Then some of us went all over the building to look for him. So I went another round to comb for him.

I was thinking that he may either went for another round of run or go to the gym. But I also thought that if I find him lying somewhere in the usual route, what should I do? I forgot my handphone and carrying him back to office on my own seems impossible.

There as I was still thinking I saw him running towards from the end point. Good thing he was all right.

So as we both gathered back in the office, i was told that some of my colleagues nearly drove off to comb for him.

What an exiting run with such wonder colleagues (the one running or the ones not running?)!!!

Matthew 18
12"What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? 13And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. 14In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should be lost.

A tiring weekend

The last weekend was very tiring as I was down with fever, cold and sore throat. Had no choice but to stay at home (no service and Sunday School teachers' training). My hubby was also very tiring as his in camp training made him wake up @ 530am every morning in the past week.

We slept till 8am. My kids woke us up as they were very hungry for breakfast. After 3 hrs when breakfast and dishes were done, myself and hubby when back to slumber as the kids continue to create havoc in the living room.

3pm : Finally my kids had to wake us up again for their lunch. We ate some biscuits and milk. If my in laws were to see that my kids are fed this for lunch, I will definitely get it. Then we just sat there and idle till dinner time.

Such were one of the idle days that we missed in the past. Just cancel all appointments and sleep at home. Most of all, we felt much better after the rest and won't having bad Monday Blues.

Rest so that we can walk longer and much more exciting journey.

Isaiah 40:29
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

欠扁问答题

喜恩上了三年的Shichida lessons. Shichida有一首opening 和 closing song. 但是她只会一首closing song. 为什么?

We made it for Korean trip!

All the planning and saving up money to bring the whole family to Korean Christian Conference is straining on our pockets and brings our faith to a test too.

Yesterday, was a day that all of a sudden my hubby broke into extreme joy and then tears for a few rounds. Even my kids was kind of afraid and keep hugging my husband to comfort him. My hubby walked out of the bathroom and annouced that "我们可以去韩国了!", he was laughing with tears then after that sobbed very badly. I sat down to calm him down... while he was explaining how God told him that the figures was miscalculated and how the coming month's income can cover our whole trip and expenses. He was overwhelm by God's providence.

Thinking this is a good thing and and went on with my chores, but next thing he came out from the study room bursting with tears and sobbing again. WHAT happen again? He told me that he is complaining about no cash to put down deposit for the trip just now. Next thing, God prompted him to look into one of his cupboards. And he found some cash, just enough to cover the deposit. Those money are from the forgotten red packets that is probably leftover to be used as emergency since there is no ATMs near our area. (that means we have to find some cash to filled that up again). My kids keep asking why is daddy crying and laughing. So we were all hugging each other and happy with tears.

After that I let my kids played with some bubbles outside the house and spent some time with ny hubby talking about his experince with God that morning. Not only I saw that God is good, but my hubby is very cute and lovable. I love this part of him, Godly Man makes me attracted. (Very mushy rite!!!!)

So I think the following is very apt:
Proverbs 20:5-7
5 The purposes of a man's heart are deep waters, but a man of understanding draws them out.
6 Many a man claims to have unfailing love, but a faithful man who can find?
7 The righteous man leads a blameless life; blessed are his children after him.

Zest woke up at 4am this morning

Maybe Zest did not have enough for dinner and went to bed. So she woke up at wee hours this morning, not able to get back to bed. This is pretty unusual for her. She ask for water, but not drinking any. So I suspected that she might be hungry. So good enough that after 5 pcs of biscuits and a bathe, she went back to sleep.

In the short (actually pretty long for a tiring mum who slept at 12am) 1 hour, I realised that Zest is developing her speech amazingly and thank God for that. Nowadays, she will ask you phrases like "你干嘛?", " What you doing?" or say "I'm here". Well taught by the sister Bliss. She is very fast at learning new songs or even funny actions from people around her. And both my girls have strong love for books. If she is creating havoc, distract her by reading a book will solve the problem. Her latest phrase "Pa Pa, I very the no time leh!". Courtesy from her dad.


She love to reciporate her love for people around her. Fairly to both her dad and myself. That is not so with Bliss. But due to Zest influence, Bliss also started to love her dad more, eg more words of love and sharing of her favourite food.


So it is written in the bible Matt 18:3-4

3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

From her I learnt that I must humble myself everyday, as there exist someone, something better than me. And to learn and appreciate the best, makes me better.

Something to look forward

Yesterday, thanks to my colleague, I got a free ride near home. Since I got a ride, I though of looking around Toa Payoh to get some breakfast this morning.

As a mother, I worry about waking my girl up on time so that everyone will not be late for work. Bliss (my elder girl) sleeps late like past 12 midnight and therefore makes a din most of the mornings. Since I have to travel all the way to the west, so I left Bliss in the hands of my patient hubby to get her to school. So since then my hubby is late for work every morning for more than an hour. Bliss had also since then begging me (with tears at times) every night to bring her to school instead . Last Jan, my project started to slow down with less late nights. And my heart tells me that I have to do something to get my hubby out of this cycle.

I took initiative to wake her up and settle her routines. That has caused me to be late for work the first few mornings, but my boss and colleagues are really nice (did not complain much). After 1 week, both my girls got used to eariler night and early mornings. I thank God as this is one step closer to moving back on our own house. Pray that this will go on.

To encourage Bliss every morning, I try different ways. One of them is to have "Surprising Breakfast"; I will try to get something new and nice. Such that when she wakes up, she will be more than willing to quickly brush her teeth. I also try to play games with her while waking her up.

Zest (my younger girl) is also very happy if she wakes up early as I will BF her a bit before she goes to her nanny's place. And she loves to wear her shoes and walk to her nanny place with us. More bonding with my hubby and me too.

I find that Humans all need something to look forward to. That goal must be set right, and have to be constantly decided to do them right with a price most of the time. With me scarificing a bit (actually a lot, 615am leh) of sleep, makes everyone looks forward to the next morning.

I remember one of my goals this year. I will try to read more scriptures on the MRT, and do look forward to have a deeper relationship with GOD. I want to press on heavenwards, at whatever price to get the prize.

Phi 3:12
12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.